Friday, June 25, 2010

I will never be "Skinny".

I got talking with my mom about body image today, and it has been on my mind for a while now. I know this issue is constantly being talked about, but I really wanted to share some of the thoughts I have been having. If you have something to add, please comment. I would love to get your guys' input on the issue.

First, I want to share an event that contributed to this being on my mind.

I graduated from high school just over a year ago, and at the beginning of my Senior year I weighed 125 pounds. I am not by any means saying I am heavy, but as my physical activeness decreased and my eating habits worsened, I found that my jeans were getting a little big snug. I currently weigh around 140 pounds. ( i guess that freshman 15 caught up to me.. I always thought that was a joke!)
I was approached recently by an old friend that I went to high school with (I act like that was SO long ago) and we got talking. Near the end of our conversation she mentioned she could see I had gained a little weight. Now, she didn't say it quite so bluntly, and I really don't think that she meant it to be rude. I know what you are thinking, who cares what she thinks, right? Well, being who I am (maybe its a girl thing--I really tried to brush it off) and despite my efforts to ignore her comment, I took what she said to heart.

Summer always brings added pressures to look good. For me, body image comes up pretty much on a daily basis. (I am sure for most of us girls we can all say the same) This summer I have made it kind of a routine to go to Seven Peaks (its a water park in provo, if you don't know what I am talking about) a couple times a week. I cannot help but notice (and often times envy) those perfectly bronzed, stick thin girls.
I have never had issues with my body image. I cannot remember feeling over self conscious, or feeling uncomfortable with my body. To be honest, (even with my freshman 15) I don't think I have the need to worry about my size.
It was right there, at seven peaks, sitting on my beach towel watching walking twigs, that I had a revelation.

After thinking about how people look at me, and how I look at others, I still cannot understand one thing.
Why do we compete with each other? Genetically, we are each build differently, and realistically, with my body type, I am never going to be one of those stick thin girls. That doesn't mean I'm fat- I'm not. But skinny, to me, brings to mind a certain image that I am certain I will never attain.
And you know what?
I am COMPLETELY alright with that.
I'm okay with having curves that clearly define me as feminine.
I think of my family, and friends. I think of all of their different sizes and shapes. They are the beautiful ones. Not the girls on the magazines or the twig at the pool.

I decided, that as long as I love and accept what I have, and who I am, I am going to be happier than the ones who find themselves unhappy with themselves for not achieving the often unrealistic goal of being "skinny".

1 comment:

~Maria said...

Oh girlie! I love you! The most important thing is just being happy with how you are, and staying healthy. Personally, I feel that the media is to blame, go to youtube and look up some dove commercials- I think they hit the topic spot on! You are beautiful! Never forget that and don't let anyone tell you otherwise!